Today, it’s cold outside. It snowed overnight. It’s one of those days that you just want to stay in bed, all nice and warm while binge-watching a show on Netflix. However, depression adds its share of additional challenges. I don’t know about you, but there are days that I wake up with body aches. Sometimes my body just can’t move or it feels too heavy to move. I find it difficult to get out of bed, get dressed and ready to take on the day. But, as with anything else, I can’t let depression stop me.
“Depression is the most unpleasant thing I have ever experienced. . . . It is that absence of being able to envisage that you will ever be cheerful again. The absence of hope. That very deadened feeling, which is so very different from feeling sad. Sad hurts but it’s a healthy feeling. It is a necessary thing to feel. Depression is very different.” ~ J.K. Rowling
Depression, if you find yourself being in this position, is something that you will find you’re constantly in a battle with. There are going to be good days and there will be some bad days. Okay, there may be a lot of bad days.
I totally agree with J.K. Rowling. Depression is unpleasant. There is an absence of hope. I believed there was an incredible absence of hope. I called it being in darkness. You can’t find your way without some piece of light. I struggled with finding hope. I can admit that. That pain I felt, was very real. I cried and cried.
In that journey of depression, you feel broken; like something is very wrong with you. You may feel that you will ever be “fixed.” I believed for years that I was broken because some of those people close to me treated me like I was and I believed them. Unfortunately, sometimes I still go back to those thoughts: “Maybe I am broken.” “Why would anyone want me; someone, that is broken and undeserving of things in life.” When I said that getting up every day is a battle, it is. I believed that my depression was a punishment from God. I couldn’t have been more wrong.
Elizabeth Gilbert, the author of Eat Pray Love and Big Magic, said this profound quote. “When you’re lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you’ve just wandered off the path, that you’ll find your way back to the trailhead any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have no idea where you are, and it’s time to admit that you have bewildered yourself so far off the path that you don’t even know from which direction the sun rises anymore.”
BOOM!! Elizabeth Gilbert hit it on the head for me. In the earlier phase of this latest episode of my depression, I did feel lost and confused. Now, there are times I still feel that way. I didn’t know how to find my way back to life. I do feel that I am on a crazy rollercoaster ride and as much as I want to get off, I can’t. At night, it was even worse. Not only did I feel lost, I also felt totally alone. No matter if someone was physically beside me, I was alone in my darkness.
“Those with a grateful mindset tend to see the message in the mess. And even though life may knock them down, the grateful find reasons, if even small ones, to get up.” ~ Steve Maraboli,
You have a choice every single day to fight through this and not let depression stop you. Now, I’m not saying that every day is going to be a kung-fu, depression-fighting day. You know the one; a day where you feel you have to open your full arsenal of positive affirmations, watch tons and tons of positive YouTube videos, calling your friends for encouragement, or even being your own cheerleader; cheerleading your way to “2, 4, 6, 8, who do we appreciate,” just to get through.
There is hope for all of us. I am seeing it as well as believing it. I’m not going to lie and say it’s easy for me to do this because it’s not. There are some days that are easier than others, but I have made a commitment to myself that I was going to beat this. I cannot let depression take any more control over me. If I can do this, guess what? SO CAN YOU.
Take a step with me. Just one. Make the decision today to not let depression stop you from doing things that you want to do. Believe it or not, you can still work towards your goals and dreams while in this situation. Every step helps along the way. You can have whatever it is that you want.
The life of your dreams is waiting for you. Don’t let depression stop you from fulfilling your dreams.
Okay!! It’s decision time! What are you going to to do? The choice is yours. Help yourself change your life and your situation. Are you ready to get started?
I hope that this post helps you in your journey with depression. Please know and remember that you are not alone. There are so many of us going through this journey, whether we choose to admit it or not. However, you have the choice to make your journey much different from anyone else’s. You are still alive. You are still living life. It may not be the best one right now, according to your standards, but you’re still living it.
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Until Next Time…..